a moment

I figured while my love was asleep in his chair and L was asleep on me (me on the couch while I'm awake) that L could rest on hubby's chest and they BOTH could sleep. So that is what I'm gazing at right now on the couch pondering the meaning of life.

I've never known love like this. It's quite overwhelming actually. I go back to April 7th when L made his appearance into the world and the wonder I felt. This baby. Half hubby and half me. Amazing. A miracle. I have many times gone back further in time to the miscarriage on 2/2/06. Twins. Two Ls! Imagine it, but I would never have known this L. The miscarriage had its purpose in my life. It helped me appreciate the miracle of life. It helped me grieve for someone I loved (someones actually) though had never met. It made my desire for a child that much stronger.

I think about the love that God has for His children. I heard all about it growing up. "God loves you. You are a child of God." I never knew what that meant to the extent that I do now. If God loves me the way I love L it is no wonder He could die on the cross for His children. It's a love like none other.

It's amazing to just sit here and watch the two of them sleep. Father and son. Hubby, the father he never had. L, the son we desperately wanted for a long time. Hubby's chest is rising and falling as he is sleeping very deeply. L is resting as well rocking to and fro with his Daddy's breathing like a little boat on a moving sea.

What a blessing I've been given with them in my life.